New Beginnings

People ask me if i'm excited about doing this internship. The truth is, i'm kind've terrified. It's the night before work starts. I'm starting to settle in for the night, just wrapping up with some final thoughts and apprehensions before the real thing starts tomorrow. I'm not afraid of a new environment, new people, new stuff like I was last semester. I know pretty much what to expect there. It's a fear of, what if this doesn't work out? what if I still can't fit into my position? I had a rough time last semester with this. I was so ready to leave last time. Most days I was just ready to go. Occasionally I was handed meaningful assignments, but not too often. My biggest fear is, what if this semester picks up where the other one left off? At the end of last semester, I sat down and talked with my mentor Jim which helped to clarify some of the issues that we had last semester. I expressed my concerns and he expressed his. The biggest concern I think was that I was expecting more structure and direct assignments, much like school, whereas he was expecting me to be more pro-active in finding things to do myself. So now, heading into a new era armed with this knowledge, hopefully I have a completely different experience. Orientation is out of the way, and I think i'm ready to start doing.